Tuesday, June 19, 2007
...makes me feel like I'm actually doing something right as a mother. Before, when I was working full time I felt guilty because I didn't feel like I got to spend enough time with Grant and felt as though I was leaving it to someone else to raise my child. Now that I get to stay home there are days that I feel so bogged down with laundry, dishes, cleaning, bottles, and diapers that I find myself wondering at the end of the day when I lay Grant down in his crib if I spent enough quality time with him that day. It's so easy for me to keep him busy with things and not to actually sit down and take time with him which is horrible of me, I feel. As of late I have made the determination to spend quality time with Grant every day doing quality things.
So, yesterday after lunch Grant and I had strawberry shortcake with whip cream topping. As far as I know, before then Grant had never had whip cream, more or less had it squirted into his mouth straight from the can. Well, isn't that something everyone should experience at one time or another during their life? I enjoyed sharing this "first" with him. The sight of mommy squirting whip cream in her mouth and then into his made him giggle so much I thought his side would split.
Every now and again I look through pictures from the last year and half and realize once again how quickly life passes us by and how easy it is to stay busy with menial tasks. Those pictures are a reminder that my little one is growing up so fast, much faster than I wish. The dishes can wait, the vacuuming done tomorrow. Right now I want to sit in the floor of my little boy's room and build a tower out of mega blocks, read his "choo-choo" book, line up Matchbox cars in the floor, or fix some pretend food in his kitchen.
Right now is all we have. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is not guaranteed. My little one, you won't be little much longer.
Grant is special because he made me a mom. Ben is special because he's making me a better mom. My boys, I love you more than life. YOU ARE MY LIFE.
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3 comments:
awww ... sniff sniff sniff. I think you're little guys are great. Trust me when I say that when Grant wakes up every morning and knows he gets to spend the day with you, doing the little things and some "quality" things together with you, he knows he is loved. Most kids don't get to see their moms every day all day - Grant and Ben are the lucky few. Cherish these times my friend! And thanks for including Tman in the mix.
I agree with Heather. In my line of work, I have kids who are at my center from open - close and rarely get to spend time with their parents aside from bath and bed. They're there 12 hours a day and not because they're parents work all day - most are just because the parents don't want to dela with the child. It's heartbreaking, really.
Good words.
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